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About Loss and Recovery of Personal Power

How many times have I made a particular decision in order to maintain peace, gain acceptance, or feel important?perhaps without even realizing it?

To give a recent example, this last week I gave into pressure by a friend to spend a night in a bad place for me. For a long time now I have been working to create a dream body. I have been working to know that I am dreaming and to be able to do simple, purposeful acts in the Dream space. In order to do this work, I need to sleep in a clean environment.

Last week, my friend begged for me to stay with her because she was lonely and frightened. Problem was, her place was dirty and disorderly. Yet there was a hidden part of me that wanted to feel needed. I didn?t want to see it, so I told myself a lie. I said to myself I would take care of her by staying with her. I quieted the little voice that told me that to stay there was contrary.

To use the language of Don Miguel Ruiz, too often we make unconscious agreements. We make unspoken deals in order to feed our shadows, our demons, without admitting it. Sometimes the other person?s shadow complements ours and a marriage is made in hell. Other times, the other person consciously or unconsciously says, ?No thanks.? Usually that?s when we feel they are heartless, callous, sadistic, selfish, and cruel. Either way they respond, a piece of us is lost. Every time we give away true power in hopes of gaining worldly power, a piece of us is lost.

The problem about losses of this kind is that they are not merely psychological. Koyote the Blind talks about how we often lose pieces of ourselves through sexual relationships. This type of example illustrates that the loss is physical. It?s not just in our heads. A piece of our available energy is removed.

Of the shamans I have heard speak about loss of this sort, E.J. Gold is the most explicit about what happens to those lost pieces. Gold says that when we make a choice less than fully consciously, we also make the other choice?also unconsciously. At that moment of unconscious choice, we spawn a parallel universe.

A parallel universe is exactly what it sounds like. It is a universe just like this one, except that in one, I made the other choice. Of course, from that point forward, the universe could become increasingly different, depending on how consequential the choice was. Imagine someone who got drunk in Vegas and woke up married. Lucky for them, in the parallel universe they fell asleep with their face in the pretzel bowl.

Parallel universes exist, at least on some interpretations of string theory in physics. Where are parallel universes? They interpenetrate one another in snarled up dimensions. We?re brushing past ourselves in parallel universes all the time, but ordinarily we have no access to those other selves.

You can think of parallel universes on the analogy of a camera lens. You can focus the camera on your neighbor?s puppy or you can focus the camera on the blade of grass by her left paw. It is impossible to see both images clearly at the same time. The camera lens in the case of parallel universes is what the Toltecs call the assemblage point. The assemblage point is part of what creates our perceptual system. It is the lens that filters out most of the rays of creation, simultaneously creating our home world, our home universe.

E.J. Gold has created a device called the Beacon. It is a radio circuit with quartz crystal grips. One important use of the Beacon is recapitulation, the recovery of lost parts of ourselves. Sometimes the recapitulation of the shamans is also called ?Soul Retrieval,? but the term is technically inaccurate.

Many of us at The Tequihua Foundation have been using the Beacon with Aka Dua, a Toltec substance that can be used to transform unconscious acts and emotions into palpable energetic effects. Some people use Aka Dua energy in healing, art, or yoga, to name a few.

The Beacon can assist us in getting the lost parts back again. The Aka Dua can assist us in keeping them. Call The Tequihua Foundation for more information about the Beacon and Aka Dua: 951-686-3471. www.tequihuafoundation.org

 Eric N. Peterson is a Toltec priest and member of The Tequihua Foundation, a Riverside, Southern CA nonprofit whose mission is to continue the ancient consciousness-transforming arts of the Toltecs. The Aka Dua is an energy prepared by a particular Toltec line. The Aka Dua assists in the alchemical process of transformation by which an ordinary human becomes the shaman.

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