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A Toltec Way Part 2: The Dreamer

I notice a feature of my consciousness: a tendency to desire more abilities than I could ever need in a thousand lifetimes. In order to follow the Toltec way of the Dreamer I must learn to move ever forward and not clutch at everything in my vicinity like a rickety child on a bike.

The Toltec way of the Dreamer requires that I let go into all that is, remembering the goal of the game I am playing at this moment and at the same time maintaining an agile, diffused attention on the qualities of phenomena wherever I find myself.

I have a tendency to worry about acquiring this or that power. Somehow I don?t feel comfortable unless I can armor myself with ?abilities.? Yet, ironically, to move with real power, to take just that effort and no other, is enough to keep me occupied for my entire lifetime--more than enough, in fact.

The Dreamer in me is fluid, more than capable of swimming anywhere if only the masculine part of myself would let the world go wholly to this feminine Dreamer within me. They coexist even now. The Toltec way requires cultivation and union of the opposites. The true Man or Woman of Knowledge has become more than and other than a man or a woman. This is not just something I know in theory. It is a process of development I have observed in myself. It is also something I have observed in the Toltec Man of Knowledge Koyote, whom I have been watching and studying for almost thirteen years.

Koyote?s character is definitely that of a man, and a very gentle and kind one at that. I have experienced in him a good father, a good mentor, and a good friend. Yet through his Dreamer nature, he appears to me to have transcended any human bounds. When I attend to the quality of Koyote?s energy, I feel sensations unlike those I experience of the ordinary humans I meet. Koyote is the deepest, blackest obsidian, ever receding yet everywhere and always present, a relentless, cavernous, sucking force so fine in its granularity than it feels like the softest breath of a lover. This is how Koyote has manifested to me, at any rate. Through his art of Telling stories, he has been able to transmit these dreams palpably to others. Dreaming true is the art of voyaging through real spaces.

Koyote has never done anything for me except make himself available to that part of me that makes myself available to the Work. "?The path of service.? What does that mean to you?" he once asked me. Wielding that question, I have chopped and diced my own resistance to service and to the non-ordinary world. There is a part of myself that has been extremely frightened and mistrustful of the Work. That frightened part of me certainly never signed on for ?service.? That part of me is much more concerned about what?s going to happen to me, what?s in it for me, what abilities am I going to gain, how can I keep myself safe and comfortable and successful? But the Toltec way of the Dreamer is to ally with the Warrior, to pursue in the travel through the worlds in an uncompromising way. I am glad I have persisted.

 Eric N. Peterson is a Toltec priest and member of The Tequihua Foundation, a Riverside, Southern CA nonprofit whose mission is to continue the ancient consciousness-transforming arts of the Toltecs. The Aka Dua is an energy prepared by a particular Toltec line. The Aka Dua assists in the alchemical process of transformation by which an ordinary human becomes the shaman.

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